hi all,

i would like to start a new word association game that is very much like the ones in the main healing from abuse group, but with a spiritual twist, cuz that's what this group is about.

this is about sharing our thoughts regarding what we think about God and what he feels about us being abused ... they can be both positive or negative, but share just one thought per post. it can be just a word if you like.

so in a nutshell ...

1. what does God think about what happened to us?
2. what does God feel about what happened to us?

you can post as many as you wish, of course. i'll pin this topic so it can be easily found and referred back to.

love and blessings, y'all!
barbara

God is heartbroken over what happend to me.

he cries when i cry.

he feels the pain that i feel.

I think God was heart-broken the day I was molested - like a loving parent when they see their child in pain.

I also think God felt that same heart-ache when he saw one of his children (my attacker) hurting a child.

Redemptive suffering...offer it up... is what comes to my mind.

God didn't want His child hurt like that, but He can use it for His kingdom's good. God is hurt and longs to fill the void that is in me. He longs to have me build a strong relatonship with Him so i will lean on Him. Also my story can be used to help other hurting girls, but to do that i have to get better. I have to heal so that i can help others heal.

God thinks what happened to me is sick and should never have had to happen.
God feels the emotions I feel only infinitely stronger but needs me to know that He, whether it be Himself or a good friend of His, is w/me always.

I really don’t know what God thinks. as a small child being molested I suppose being so young I thought it happened to everyone. I really don, t know.
But I can tell you while I was being raped at 14 for 3 days by three adult men. as I was hand cuff and raped I felt myself leave my body. litterly above my body. I kept saying why why why. and someone was above my body with me. a women she was holding me and I was clinging to her . I kept saying why. She said its only your body down there. you are safe here with me. It not you just your body.
Does that make sence to anyone .

I also remember at 37 year old and feeling very emotional about my whole life. and say why to myself. and I heard a voice a male this time. He said Betty you can take the pain and let it eat you . Or you can do good with it. Take your pain and turn it into good for others.
Angels? I don’t know. I just know I heard them. And no I am not a person who hears voices all the time. just hear them when I am hurting or in danger .
I belive they are my Angels. And God sent them to watch over me. So I suppose he didn’t like what happened to me. and sent his Angels to be close to me when I needed them.

hi ms. niles,

i understand what you are describing. it is called dissociation. that’s where a person is experiencing so much pain that they "leave" spiritually to where there isn’t anymore pain. it is quite commonplace for the abused.

another part of dissociation is when the core personality splits into different parts of the personality. these parts have opinions of their own, they look differently than the core personality, have names, and have roles they play within your life. the pain was too great for the person to tolerate, so it is quite a creative way with dealing with the pain.

i’ve experienced that. very interesting. i found it to be a blessing. they have a voice all their own, voices that i couldn’t express myself. the good thing is that there is healing.

i believe God gives this freedom from pain psycologically because the body wasn’t meant to endure such atrocities.

love and blessings,
barbara

I believe God is very saddened by the abuse we have endured.
I believe he feels our pain and wants to comfort us and help us to heal but we have to believe in him and love him so that he can help us.